SO I know I've been taking forever to submit any of my works over the past year (and completely out of their original order). This would be because I am lazy, distracted with current works, still lack a scanner for non-digital work, stressed-out from trying to finish my god-damned bachelor's degree, trying to get more hours for money, and mentally exhausted across the board. MY. LIFE. SUCKS.

Or at least it feels that way. One day I feel like I'm finally making it past this rut, but the next proves that I still have a long way to go before this hellish landscape is void of land mines. I've gone through so many days of hating myself and forcibly beating inspiration out of my skull, I can't even count them on my fingers and toes combined anymore. At present, this bullshit feels like it may be a permanent fixture in my life.

Yes, I am complaining. No, you can't tell me to shut up and stop being 'whiney'. I need to vent because finals are approaching and I don't know how I'm going to pull them out of my ass. It probably doesn't help that I seem to be developing nightmares and don't want to sleep, but force myself to so that I don't fall ill during finals and fail a course again.

I need a vacation. A REAL vacation. Not just the couple weeks off of school, either. Something that gets me away from my family and forces me to have honest-to-goodness relaxing fun.

Balls.